I like deep philosophical questions you can ponder on some quiet time alone I have multiple answers for this but for me I think it's probably one should be able to say I did my absolute best I tried everything to make it all work and I'm satisfied with what I've done. before my dad died of cancer he said to me as we watched the Celtics basketball game the commentators were talking about someone who had died being a great guy my father said that's all I want is to be known as a great guy who helped everyone it did all he could I thought it was a joke. I was embarrassed that's all he wanted out of life but it wasn't he wanted a lot more but in the end that's what really mattered.